I suddenly have a little free time and it’s terribly confusing to me. For the past year, I’ve been juggling running two businesses, getting my teen to doctor’s appointments and tutors and all the crazy unknowns that come with having a chronically ill teen. When you don’t know what the day will bring, you have to be super organized otherwise everything crashes down. Honestly, I haven’t really had free time in my day where I don’t have to do anything. Until now.
Rosie’s been back to school for the first time since the fall. After her month-long hospital stay it made zero sense to send her back. She had missed much of the semester so we set our sights on January. The month was a little hit or miss with migraines and doctor’s appointments but last week, she made it four days in a row. Suddenly, I found myself with four hours in my day that I had to myself and it was a bit befuddling.
I should’ve used that time to get more organized or start on taxes. Instead, I went through drawers and got rid of clothes from my past life that will never fit into this one (plus I now live in leggings so there’s that). I went through the closet in my office that had everything crammed into it when we started on basement construction and threw crap away. I watched a couple of documentaries on Netflix and I watched my Facebook feed in disgust after the inauguration. Essentially, I didn’t really get anything that was important started. It was a waste of my free time.
When people talk about not having any free time, I often wonder if they really understand what it’s like to not know what’s going to happen from day-to-day and how that impacts time. I also wonder if they don’t appreciate consistency in their day. Yes, it can be boring, but it’s a whole lot less stressful than having to juggle your schedule all the time. Because of that, I stopped scheduling things- lunches, networking events- I hated cancelling last-minute on people. To me, it made life easier. However, now’s the time to start scheduling things again and if I have to cancel, then so be it. I need to put my free time to good use.
Motivation (or lack thereof) is another reason why the free time was a little shock to my system. After the marathon hospital stay, I was exhausted and had zero motivation. I had enough to keep my businesses going but not enough to really kill 4th quarter like I should have. Sadly, it continued a bit into January and guess what? I don’t blame myself one bit for feeling tired and unmotivated. The hospital stay sucked the life out of me and I couldn’t expect to be rested, perky and ready to conquer the universe right after.
So, it’s time to get motivated. I found this little gem, 77 Ways to get Motivated, on Amazon for free and I’m going to download it and see if I get some great ideas. And, if not, the first step to get motivated is admitting that you’re not. I’m on my way to a better use of my free time.